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Well, my internet finally works again.  And I can actually write in here now.  Mmm school started.. I got my lisence.. Hopefully getting a car soon.. Me and Travis are great.. I dunno what else to say that's new.. Not much is going on really.

I stayed home from school today.. my stomach's been hurting since last night :o(  Travis rode his bike over after school for a little while to visit me :oD I Love Him So Much.

School tomorrow.  Then Dad's taking me and Trav to the mall.  I have to get some stuff for the harvest dance.  I get to drive the Tahoe to school! :oD he he he he heeeee yayyyy I'm excited.

I guess I'm gonna go.. Leave comments please..

-m

I Love You So Much Babe :o)

..I knew things would get better..

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I went to Travis's Saturday. Worked 5-10. Sunday I worked 12-6, Travis and Chris picked me up. I went to Travis's and hung out with him for the night. Monday hadda work 12-6 again then came home Yesterday I went to Travis's and put corn rows in his sister's hair. Then we hung out for a while. Went to my mom's for a while and had dinner, then went to my dad's around 9 so I could type my paper.. I ended up sleeping here. Had driving time after school today 'til 4. And now I'm sitting around.. yup.

-m

ILY

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[	music	|	Dane Cook	]

So Wednesday was my orientation. I got to start on cashier too. Fun stuff. Yesterday(Thursday) had to stay after school for a tiny bit to bring in the track equipment and shit. Daddy picked me and Alex up, dropped her at home and him and I drove to Tri County to get Travis. He came over. We ate food and watched Darkness Falls.. he he he heee... Jumpy movie huh.. hah. Then my mom picked us up. We stopped at Shaws, me and Travis went in and got shit to make cheeseburgers and pasta salad. We went home and cooked and ate dinner, watched Shawshenk Redemption with my mom and brother. Trav left a little before 9 and I watched CSI in bed. Today Vopa gave me and Cristina a ride to my house and we watched GREASE! I love that movie. We had Spaghetti-o's for dinner and then went to work around 4:30-ish. She works at HomeGoods right next to TJ's :oP Worked cashier all night, it was so hot. Got out at 10, grabbed Cristina, listened to some Dane Cook in the ride car home and when we got here, and now, I am heerrrrrre, and very tired. And it is a Friday night. What a life.

I'm starving, going to eat and lay down with some TV and maybe the telephone :o) Goodnight.

-m

ILY :o)

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Yesterday was a good day. :o) I went to Travis's after school. We watched Jeepers Creepers and some TV. Basically just hung out all day. I love being with him. Today was boring so far. I have my TJMaxx orientation tonight at 6. I'm gonna get in the shower soon. Not much else to say really.. It's been too cold out lately-not liking it. :o( I have to stay after school tomorrow to help put away track equipment or else we don't get our Varsity letters. Uh ohh. I think I'll ask Travis to come over tomorrow. I have a headache again today. grr.. I've had it for a few hours. Well I'm gonna go...

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ILY :o)

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Hmm.. where to start..

Friday: Went to my brother's baseball game at 5:30, yes, I got to drive. :oP He crashed into some other kid in the last inning and the ambulance had to come and everything. My brother was alright, landed on his face, but he was alright. The other kid sprained his neck. After that I went over to Mike's. Travis was there. We made a fire on the roof of the shack, it was kind of difficult, kinda funny. Joe showed up. We hung out, and did some goofy stuff.. Mike's dad drove us home some time around 11 I think.

Saturday: Had to get up and go do the Kiddie Carnival in the morning. It was fun but it was too cold. A lot of people came. And Vinessa was looking pretty hott in that clown suit, especially the balloon ass! haha. I went to Hilary's after with Becca and Laila for a while, then went home. I went to Travis's later... yeah. His dad brought me home around 12.

Sunday: Picked Travis up and left for lunch around 11. Him and I went with my mom, dad, brother, sister, and mom's friends and their son to Wright's Farm Resteraunt in RI. You will never eat more amazing food once you've eaten there. They only serve Chicken, Pasta, French Fries, and Salad, but it is so fucking good. The chicken just falls apart and melts in your mouth. The pasta is amazing, the french fries are huge, and the pasta is wicked good. I'd have to say it's always been my family's favorite place to eat, definitely. They even have a gift shop and a bar and you can play keno(I won 24 bucks once :oP ) and theres hundreds of rooms and people have weddings there.. Yeah, it's just awesome.  But after that, my mom dropped me and Travis at his house. We watched some movies and took a walk, and just hung around. Sunday was a good day. :o)

Monday(today): Got to miss Biology and English cause of the Science MCAS. It wasn't that bad seeing that it didn't count and you could pretty much bullshit the whole thing and miss class for for it :oP hehe. We also had activity mod cause we had class elections and shit on TV. After school, Rickie let me drive. I dropped Rubbah off and then went to Richie's bank so he could get his money, then home.. Hilary called me and asked me to go tanning with her so I watched an episode of Sex and the City then went tanning. After tanning we went back to Hilary's for more Sex and the City, but the second we got all comfortable and ready, we come to find that it has been removed form the HBO Series on OnDemand!! :o0 :o0 Apaulling! We were struck. What am I to do with my life now with no Sex and the City re-runs?!?!?!?! I can't actually sit myself down to watch them when they are actually showing on television! I don't know what to do with myself. But yeah, so we just watched regular, boring TV. I almost fell asleep, Hilary did. hah. At 6, my mom picked me u and we went to my sister's softball game. It was so cold. I had the sleeping bag on me haha. Me and the girls were all supposed to go for ice cream but.. again, that didn't happen.. people had  work and then it got too cold. grr.. another day.. again. I've also had a headache since like 10:30.. >:o(

Oh yeah, I finally got a job too! :oD I have my orientation at TJMax on Wednesday. It will be boring but I get paid for it!! hehehe. And I start next weekend. Yahoo, I'm so excited. I needed a jooobbbb so bad. But yeah, I think I'm gonna go get some medicine. Again. Maybe it's cause I didn't wear my glasses today much. And since I've had them I haven't been getting my headaches. Ahh, I'm dumb.

-m

ILY :o)

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Yesterday was good. I went to school, had math MCAS, and got dismissed at 1, along with the rest of the track team. We got into Fitchburg around 2-2:30. We were the first team there. We ended up getting 6th out of I dunno how many. They only place 7 teams though. We did good though. We got home around 7:30 and Connie gave me a ride to Travis's. I hung out there for a few hours. Then came home. I had such a headache all night since like 4, it sucked. But Trav took care of me, heh. I Love Him. Well I have a meeting at MHS in 15 minutes, then MCAS once again.

-m

ILY :o)

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Just got home from school. It was alright days go by faster this week cause of MCAS. MCAS isn't even that bad either.  They're pretty easy. Richie let me drive home from Shaws a little while ago.. hehe. now I'm here.

So Sunday my papa came down to visit from Somervile and we all went out to 99 with him for dinner. Then I went to Travis's. Monday had practice after school. I stopped over at Trav's to see him for a bit cause he stayed home sick from school.. I ended up staying. And yesterday we had our last track meet. We won. 87-49. Woo hoo. Then Alex drove me and Travis to his house cause she has her permit!! :oP heh. Me and Travis helped his dad with remodeling the bathroom. I got to rip up tiles from the floor. I don't know what I'm doing today.. probably nothing. No more track.

I get to get out of school tomorrow at 1!! hehehe.. People on the team who qualified are competing in the League Meet in Fitchburg and the whole team is going. So I have MCAS in the morning and a little of real classes. Probably won't be home until like 7-8 though. Oh well. I gotta go to my brother's baseball game on Friday. And Saturday is the Kiddie Carnival at the Town Park. That is if it doesn't get rained out. I hope it doesn't.

-m

ILY :o)

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So yesterday was the Relay For Life. It was alright. Much better than last year. I went to Travis's after school.. yeah. We got to MHS around 10. My mom and I had to walk at 12 and at 4 in the morning. As soon as we were done with that, we went home. Becca came home with me. we slept 'ril about 11, then got some Dunkin's for breakfast. I went and got my hair cut then picked up my glasses. I went to Hilary's around 5:30, Becca and Keri were there. We got ready for Hilary's *suprise* sweet 16 birthday party! :oP It was good at first. Then Shit happened. Some faggot people showed up, and others just decided to be faggots. So I left around 9:30. Me, Travis, Mike, Joe and Chris all went back to Mike's. It was fun I guess for the little while I was there. haha.. Dad picked me up around 11:15. Now I am home. Today was alright.. busy. And the party was a mistake. But hey.. what can you do?

I'm going up to bed... see if Travis actually calls. Goodnight

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ILY

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So today was all fine.. until last mod. Shit get's around fast huh? Specially when it isn't true. You know all these little things aren't what upset me. It's the increasing weight on me after every little thing is dropped on me. They build up to one big problem. I'm not angry about any of the little things, it's just, when it hits me that all these mini aggrivations are constantly running through my head, when I get upset. I don't know what to do with myself. I cry and I don't even know why sometimes.      Anyways.. enough of nonsense..

Had a track meet today again Notre Dame Academy. We won. by like 40-50 pts. woo hoo. we needed that win. There's only one more meet. The week after next with Nipmuc. Districts are Saturday. I'm not going of course. Relay for life is Friday. I'm walking with my mom and a bunch of her friends. One of her friends' sister died from cancer a while back so we walk for her. She was in the army so we're called "Jamie's Generals". heh. we set up a big army tent and walk in army suits and play army music. it's fun :oP I have to walk from like 4-5 in the morning too. funnnn. I'm sure I'll be loving that. Travis is sick :o( He's been in bed all day. I hope he gets better soon. My body hurts. My knee's killing me. I always had problems with it before, I used to have to go to physical therapy for a long time for it. It was feeling alright for a long time and now it's hurting again... a LOT. :o( My ankle's been hurting me for a few days too. I'm a mess. Just a big ball'a ouchies. ;oP I need ice and rest.. maybe some food too. Yeah sounds good. Practice tomorrow then who knows. I'm going to my mom's tonight, probably soon. Homeworkk. ick.

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ILY :o) Feel better babe

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Well today sucked at school. I was pretty much upset all day. I love how people try to tell me that I'm not going out with my boyfriend and I especially love how some people think they know more about my relationship than I do, when they don't even know me. People need to start minding their own business, really. I try so hard not to let these petty things bother me, you have no idea how hard it is. Every day it's something else. Ridiculous. Every time shit starts to go back to normal someone has to fuck it up. Everyone just needs to leave me alone.. :'o( But let me just have everyone know, you can keep on at what you're trying to do to us, but let me say, you are not worsening the situation any nor making it better. You are doing nothing but making yourselves look like fools. So whatever you're trying to do, it's not working :o)

I just want to be happy...

Had practice after school. It was easy. Went to Travis's after. Took a shower. We watched Cat in the Hat. Haha. it was kinda funny.. heh. I just got home about a half hour ago. I have some homework to do. There's no good TV on tonight so I guess I get to do it, greeeaaaat. Travis shoud be calling soon :o) I Love Him. He was so cute today and all cuddley, heh :oD I like being with him. But it'd be sooo much better if some people minded their own business.. I can't wait 'til we get out of school and don't have to deal with these faggots. If only he came to our school. Oh well. there's nothing we can really do about it now.. just wait. I'm waiting.. impatiently, but waiting. I'm starting to question my best friend... I don't like it. Don't like it at all. But again, gotta let it take it's course. ..And I am waiting.

Things will get better, I know..

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ILY :o)